'nuff said.

Recovering and fighting to be better. 

While going about things I want to do like a headless chicken.

Slow construction on semi-private RP group:

-Mel.

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-Mel.

It's been quite a year of ups and downs...Probably more downs if I encompass things outside my control. 
But I learn and, as always, have faith and hope that everything will be okay.
This may be a little presumptuous of me to say the following but...
I accepted that it's okay to want to recover (by) myself and with luck, there are those who will be there for me and patiently wait until I feel some semblance of normalcy, near or far. Even if I withheld most details of my problems/concerns or scattered them to different people I know and trust so that I don't cause so much worry.
I accepted that I can be (rightfully) angry and frustrated at those who hurt me and people I care about. And eventually, move on. While still be grudgingly wary. Or be naively forgiving, depends on how much I've grasped on your personality or I feel there's no more reason for animosity. I won't lie. I've grown some after all. I've explained to most of my friends time and again that my anger reaction is like "Coke & Mentos" - fizz and gone; unless someone throws in more Mentos (or salt).

And also I reflected that I may have been bordering toxic myself to others without meaning to. I apologise. 

Affinity is a fickle thing but if there's a window of chance for something to take root deeper, hold it tentatively or take a chance. Like choosing the right cat for you and vice versa. -coughIwishIcouldhaveacatbutnotresponsibleenoughahahacough-

So I'm saying thank you, thank you and THANK YOU. You know who you are! I'm really grateful! To those I took time to open up to or went BLAH and spilt silly shit at, you have my everlasting acknowledgement (and if you want it, my frankness) just as you've granted me. :'3 
Though I may not be so outspoken nor be at the forefront, my stand as a loyal supporter to those I love and cherish is unwavering.  
And even to those who antagonised me (whether or not you think otherwise), I wish you well in your own endeavours. 

Or as Bilbo Baggins from The Lord of Rings by J.R.R. Tolkien puts it best: "I don't know half of you half as well as I should like, and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve."  

God, that felt cheeky even to myself. X'D

RP Comfort Meme

✘ - Naaay. 
✔ - Yaaay!

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Role Play Basics

Locations

I am comfortable doing:  
✘ Comment 
☯ Chats (If DA Chats are in use/preferred by the RP group. Though, to be honest, I get disconnected without warning. I will accommodate the choice still!)
✘ Notes
✘ Forum
✘ Skype  
☯ Google Docs (If there's mutual understanding to be attentive and leave the tab with the document open on the browser to check for updates. XD) 
✔ Discord (Just PM me for my tag~) 

Participants

I am comfortable with:
✔ One on one role plays.
✔ Up to three people.
☯ Up to four people. (In the case of an event happening.)
☯ Five or more people! (Same as the above statement.)
✘ As big as possible! (I can only be patient/interested/invested for so long... X'D)

Post Length

I usually write about:
☯ One or two sentences.
✔ One or two paragraphs.
✔ Two to five paragraphs.
☯ More than five paragraphs. 
✘ A few pages worth.

I am comfortable role-playing with people who write:
☯ One or two sentences.
✔ One or two paragraphs.
✔ Two to five paragraphs.
☯ More than five paragraphs.
✘ A few pages worth.

Content

I appreciate role-playing that are:
✔ Roughly planned with some room for creativity and surprises.
☯ Random and impulsive.
☯ Expecting both sides to carry or put in filler. No end in sight, defying passing of time for all eternity. In other words, no goal in mind that it may put everyone in an awkward position. (If allowed to drop/end the RP when it goes too long, I'll bite. Discussing possible conclusion(s) would be doubly appreciated!)

Posting Pace

This section is very subjective and situational. Please have open understanding of time/energy/sanity/relationship/life activity differences.
☯ Slow. (Timezones...Ugh.)
☯ Irregular. (Did I mention timezones? And life? Double ugh.)
☯ Somewhat steady/constant.
☯ Fast or within a time limit. (This mostly happen when in an event. But a rush is good now and then~)

Role-play Requests

I like getting requests from:
☯ Anyone and everyone at any time! (Just be aware of time zone differences/energy.)
☯ When I ask for role-plays. (I'm really an awkward piece of shit when it comes to asking but probability to go ahead and jump into an RP is high when I get the green~ Unless you're busy or just admit to me straight that you have no interest in having your OC interact with mine for so-and-so reason.)
✔ From friends and acquaintances.
✔ From friends only.  

Habits and Manners

Personal disclosure on own principles/how I RP:
☯ I can get obsessive in/set on completing a role-play. I'm aware replies can't always be instantaneous but a heads up is appreciated all the same. Tie up loose ends sort of mindset.
☯ I may get a little ahead of things. But just because if I personally (and maybe unthinkingly/selfishly, oops) assume that what I put out would not be cared about or I really think it would be alright. (I don't mind being corrected/correcting!) 
☯ Details kind of matter to me, especially when it seems a response post I receive does not entirely make sense in response to mine.
☯ I lack sometimes at being attentive...and then I get 'serious' on certain little details. Varies.
☯ Passage of time matters to me - as does quality and quantity of interaction - when making a relation with my OC. (Relates to point above.) 

Plea to other party:
☯ Not drop a RP with no warning/explanation. Forgotten. Lost interest. (Unless you're a friend and I'm familiar of your habits of abandonment. We all know who we are.) 

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Romantic Relationships

Shipping

I am comfortable shipping my characters:
☯ At the first sign of flirting!
✔ Our characters know each other deeply.
✔ Our characters have established a sufficient level of relationship to take the next step.
✔ It depends on the character.
✔ If I know I can trust the role-player.
✔ If I planned beforehand with the role-player.

If you want to ship with my characters:  
✔ Talk to me about it from the start.
✔ Talk to me about it once our characters know each other.
✔ Talk to me about it once they both have some feelings for each other.
✔ Talk to me about it when they finally decide that they want to go beyond hugging.

Speed

When shipping my characters, I like the romance to happen:
☯ My relationships know no speed. They happen if they happen.
☯ POW! Love at first sight! (Depends on the character here.)
☯ Fast, but not super fast! Risking crash and burn. (If I am allowed some crying/whining for a certain period of time from feels in your message/chat boxes even though it's my own (OC's) shit decision...I'm terrible.)
✔ Steadily paced. Hiccups along the way are good! (I like feels. At my own emotional expense. Sue me.)
✔ Slooow burn. Like dangle it and tease it slightly out of my reach. (Get me on my toes!)

Smut

When my characters gets intimate, I prefer: 
☯ To skip the act entirely. (Only when the other party is not comfortable to do so.) 
☯ To write the build up, but skip the act. (Same as the above statement.)
☯ To write the act only if it is very special, but otherwise skip it. (Same as the above statement with the exception that my enthusiasm is not discouraged.)
✔ To write the act all the way through. (I really won't half-ass it! Be prepared!)

Romantic Artwork

When it comes to artwork depicting our relationship please:
✔ Base from canon RP.
✔ Base from random OOC idea/concept.
✔ NSFW with warning. (Not really against much. Anything from sweet, fluffy and tame to passionate, sensual and erotic stuff. I'm open to kinks/fetish discussion~)
✘ Whatever weird and gross shit the human mind could dare imagine. (Example: Tentacle porn never appeals to me, so that's under this category here.) 

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Dramatics

* Important: Always be sure to communicate with your partner individually if you think you are about to go outside their comfort zones even just the slightest bit!!!

Violence

When it comes to violent situations, I am comfortable with: 
✔ No violence at all!
✔ I'm fine with verbal arguments!
✔ Some violence, like a paper cut, or an accidental elbow to the face.
☯ Mild violence, such as punching, kicking, hair pulling.
☯ Violence, such as stabbings.
☯ Beyond violence, such as torture and more.

If you are going to do something violent, please:
☯ Don't do it at all. (While reluctant on the surface, I overall don't want to break an OC's character, especially if they are inclined to such extreme actions. But FOR LOGICAL REASON(S).)
✔ Talk to me about it first. 
☯ Surprise me! (If I want my OC to remain unscarred for the time being, I'll let it be known.)

Sensitive Topics

✔ I am open to topics not normally explored as possible route during role-playing, which ones exactly would be shared in private discussion. I won't force if it triggers! (It's just that as I grew older, I feel more interest in darker/wayward subjects to apply to character development...I hope that makes sense.) 

Dramatic Artwork

✔ Post what you like!

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