It's been quite a year of ups and downs...Probably more downs if I encompass things outside my control.
But I learn and, as always, have faith and hope that everything will be okay.
This may be a little presumptuous of me to say the following but...
I accepted that it's okay to want to recover (by) myself and with luck, there are those who will be there for me and patiently wait until I feel some semblance of normalcy, near or far. Even if I withheld most details of my problems/concerns or scattered them to different people I know and trust so that I don't cause so much worry.
I accepted that I can be (rightfully) angry and frustrated at those who hurt me and people I care about. And eventually, move on. While still be grudgingly wary. Or be naively forgiving, depends on how much I've grasped on your personality or I feel there's no more reason for animosity. I won't lie. I've grown some after all. I've explained to most of my friends time and again that my anger reaction is like "Coke & Mentos" - fizz and gone; unless someone throws in more Mentos (or salt).
And also I reflected that I may have been bordering toxic myself to others without meaning to. I apologise.
Affinity is a fickle thing but if there's a window of chance for something to take root deeper, hold it tentatively or take a chance. Like choosing the right cat for you and vice versa. -coughIwishIcouldhaveacatbutnotresponsibleenoughahahacough-
So I'm saying thank you, thank you
and THANK YOU
. You know who you are! I'm really grateful! To those I took time to open up to or went BLAH and spilt silly shit at, you have my everlasting acknowledgement (and if you want it, my frankness) just as you've granted me. :'3
Though I may not be so outspoken nor be at the forefront, my stand as a loyal supporter to those I love and cherish is unwavering.
And even to those who antagonised me (whether or not you think otherwise), I wish you well in your own endeavours.
Or as Bilbo Baggins from The Lord of Rings by J.R.R. Tolkien puts it best: "I don't know half of you half as well as I should like, and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve."
God, that felt cheeky even to myself. X'D
With all that said, I wish everyone here a
MERRY CHRISTMAS 2016
For those who wonders why they are mentioned. I'm really sentimental and fond. Even over the little things.
You may not remember your deeds or feats - that you may think nothing of - but I do and always will.